hey doof...IM ALIVE!!!!!!!

i have no fucking idea if you still read this, or if you know how to get here, or if you will ever get to read this post. Just know that there are certain things in my life that will remain forever constant, and I damn hope you remain one of em.

Hayop, 2 years between posts....that oughta satiate my fans, mwehehehe

Hey, who won? The team of that tall boyfriend of yours, or the team of the ex-boyfriend of your kumare?

Hehe, this no-name policy is goin a but too far. But hey, cant risk another fiasco, can we?

Hey MJ, and to all you other straggling folk who manage to find this blog:

I did it. I fuckin did it. I have fulfilled my lifelong dream of passing the bar, and becoming a lawyer. I did it.

You know what, I thought i'd be ecstatic, i'd be jumping for joy, i'd be on cloud 9. But instead, i'm kinda on like cloud 7.5 instead. Dont get me wrong, Im'm friggin happy and shit to finally pass the bar, but I cant be al that ecstatic coz a close friend of mine didn't make it. It's hard to truly enjoy one's happiness when simultaneously confronted with a friend's sadness of equal caliber. Needless to say, I wasnt able to fully savor my victory till after that friend of mine was consoled and home with family. And when I was alone, well, i passed cloud 9 during my ascent.

Such tragic news aside, I am more of relieved, actually, than happy. My life has been put on hold while I studied for the bar, took the bar, and waited for the results. Unlike some of my batchmates, I chose not to work pending bar results, and now, well, I dont have an excuse anymore. I am now off to face the real world, not being able to hide behind school and homework and other shit like that anymore. Damn that's scary. And exciting.

On a sidenote, it is the birthday today of one of my oldest and best friends in the world, as well as my sister. Three reasons to celebrate. Christmas had nothing on this time, now tis truly the season to be jolly.

I'd like too take this opportunity to fill out my Oscar fantasies, and take time to thank everyone who helped me reach my lofty goal. Of course, none of this would be possible without God. Thank God for guiding me every step of the way. My family, who have tirelessly supported me and put up with my lazy ways, to my law school friends, for being the best possible sort of people to be with under such times of stress. Without them, I would've probably crashed and burned a long time ago. All my other friends who supported me and prayed for me and encouraged me. And you, MJ, for being your ususal doofy self. For leaving, then returning, so that I may only cherish your company even more. For the kind words of encouragement or harsh words of censure whenever i needed it. For the bops in the head and the free stuff, for the company when i needed you and the relentless belief in me and my potential, i thank you. I just hope you have even an idea of how much you mean to me.

Anyway, before i get too mushy and maudlin here, thats about it. In case you were wondering, I do not mention any actual names coz it may appear in google searches and this blog may be traced to me. I value my anonymity and privacy very highly, which is kinda ironic coz a blog is so friggin public and accesible. Oh well, kaw kas MJ, talkin me into this. O well, I shall now celebrate some more.

Quite a happy day for me. Quite.

Here goes nothing

And so begins my first foray into the world of Blogs. Sheesh, blog. what a term. Sounds like a tagalog euphemism for the male gonads. Anyway, this is my first ever entry and attempt. An experiment if you will. This blog entry is actually meant for an audience of one only, hence the title. But of course, this being the world wide web and all that shit, there is that remotest of possibilites that other people may chance upon my musings. And this i say to you intrepid readers, enjoy. Of course, to my audience of one, this is for you. Well, not exactly FOR you, but i am writing this with you foremost in mind. Perhaps in the hope that you enjoy this immensely and decide to start a b(et)log of your own :D Who knows, maybe this may go down as the suckiest blog ever (MJ: Even lamer than you-know-who's), or just maybe, it might transform into the most-read blog in internet history. Yaah, and monkeys might fly out of my butt.

Hmmm, what to write about. I noticed that the other blogs i read start out with some famous quote, witty quip, or some crappy line from a song. Hmmm, being at a current loss for what to write, and being a strong advocate of peer pressure, methinks i shall do likewise. Here goes. I therefore quote this song:

"I am just a poor boy, though my story's seldom told
I have squandered my existence
For a pocket full of mumbles, such are promises"

- The Boxer, Simon and Garfunkle

Why did i start with that? Am i devoted Simon and Garfunkle fan? Am i paying homage to them for the honorary Grammy they won a few days ago? Does that song have significant meaning in my life?
Nope. Nada. None of the above. So why did I quote it? 'Coz thats the song im listening to now. I dont have time to think of some cool obscure song to quote. Ever notice that most people quote obscure songs in the hope that they appear cool, or learned, or to seem musically diverse. Whatever. Of course, I myself a, guilty of that sometimes, but not now. There, the song just ended and am now listening to "My Own Worst Enemy" by Lit. Had the randomizer deemed otherwie, I would've quoted that song instead. Therefore, future posts may quote Bob Marley, or Black Sabbath, or Aegis, or Skid Row. Whatever Im listening to now.

OK, now that I'm done with the obligatory yet cliche "quote for the day", on to my ramblings. Remember dear reader, this is my first attempt at this, um, stuff. I've never kept a diary or journal, so im not really used to writing without a specific person in mind to whom it is addressed. I havent really rad that many blogs. Some of the entries i've read dealt with that person's events for the day, or jottings on the girl or guy the writer is stalking, or just everyday balderdash that range from tear-inducing boredom to edge-of-your-seat excitement.

Maybe i should start by introducing myself. Actually, if this were a REAL blog entry, i'd start with that, but this is more of an experiment than anything, so i'd prefer to be anonymous for the meantime. Well, i can elaborate on my life withot really compromising my identity, so i think ill do just that.

Let's see, Im 26. Single. Jobless. Penniless. The jobless thing is just temporary, coz im awaiting the results of the bar that WILL come out tomorrow, or to be more precise, later coz its 12:32 am. Thats one of the reasons im here in my computer, pounding away on the keys. I cant do a damn thing, my chest is all tight and im all jittery coz the rest of my life will be decided tommorow. Yes, i am a law school graduate. From the University of the Philippines. Yes, I am Filipino, and proud of it. Eeeew, this entry is starting to sound like a slum (or is it slam?) book so i shall stop with the personal info. And oh yes, my fave actress is Charlize Theron and my motto is "Honesty is the Best Policy". Yaaah, and purple winged monkeys might fly out of my butt.

Hmmmm, this rambling stuff is harder than it seems. That's coz i have sooo much leeway. I mean, give me a topic like say, Music in general, or why Goodfellas is better than Godfather, or the Top best guitar riffs of the 70's, and i will ramble yer pretty little heads off. But no such topic is designated, and i am having a hard tiome. Sheesh, now im rambling about rambling. Hayup.

Hmmm, made a quick glance at the blog of a friend of mine. I need tips on rambling. Quite an unfocused rambler i am. Okay, i shall now ramble on about what i did today. I woke, up, ate breakfast (note, at 1:30 pm), finished the book i was reading, Lolita by Vladimir Noborkov (or sumpin like dat), started a new book, Tuesdays with Morrie, chatted with one of my bestest friends in the world (Yes, kaw yun. shaddup.), played a little Tekken Tag Tournament in my PS2, talkled to some law friends regarding bar results chismis, and um, thats about it. Oh yeah, i downloaded 4 songs today. Hole Hearted by Extreme, All the Things she said by TATU, The Rising by Bruce Springsteen and No Ordinary Morning by Chicane.

And that about sums up my day. Some Blog writers take three pages to sum up their days. My day is summed up in three lines. Ok, Ok, 2 and a half. And the highlight of my day, was that chat, and my 4 new songs. Ok, i admit it, I am an mp3 addict. I try to download around 4 songs a day. At present, i have reached my quota, and am downloading on more now, Brimful of Asha by Cornershop. I know its wrong. I know it's piracy and im technically robbing. But being the penniless aspiring lawyer i am, i have no choice. I have an insatiable love for music. I listen to all sorts. From Bach to Black Sabbath, from Ashanti to Aegis, i love all types. By heart though, i am a rocker. I was first drawn to music by, surprise, The Beatles. Outr of my 1000+ mp3 collection, most are in the rock and metal genre, but i also have lots of hip-hop, r & b, classical, jazz, even country wudya believe. mp3's i want. DSL i want even more!! Darn, im friggin stuck with a dial-up so most songs take 20 to 30 miutes to download, while DSL users can do that in 5 minutes. Man, i wish i had a job na so i can DSL already. Soon, soon....

Damn, the electric fan was taken out of the computer room, and i am being feasted upon by mosquitos. Thank God the dengue ones only prey during the day (hey that rhymes). My leg is full of bites already. I guess I'll have to call it a day ,lest the mosquitos drain me of all my blood. Hmmm, and so ends my first ever blog entry. Didnt go too atociously i hope. I promise more cool stuff next time. Let me end with a quote from the song playing now...

" Coz you come from out of nowhere
My (something) comes to a still
One minute's here
and one minute's there
Dont know if i should Laugh or Cry
Onme minute's here
and one minute's there
and then you wave goodbye"

Out Of Nowhere, Faith No MOre

And with that, i sign out, oh audience of one. Tell me what ya think.

Peace